January 2011
40 posts
The Train
A sallow face
Wrinkled with fatigue
And too much love
She leans back against the window
As the scenes flit by
Too tired to hide her face
Her mouth hangs open
She’s ready to leave
Her ragged shell
Clothed in filthy hand-me-downs.
No one knows,
no one cares.
But her arm so graceful
Beautiful in its arch
Tenderly encircles
A child with porcelain skin
His eyes are bright
...
December 2010
34 posts
i really hope I never see the American version
i was thinking that this movie is about true love. But then I thought about how Oskar is going to be old one day and maybe he’ll end up just like the man who poured acid upon himself. Then I thought maybe true love isn’t such a great idea after all.
Nevertheless, this movie was really good. Mainly because it was unsettling, yet peaceful.
For some reason I'm having a hard time looking...
I can’t tell how or when or what has changed me so much. But I really have. My perspective has changed and that has changed everything else. From some natural course of experiences, I have matured to the point where now I feel ready to go out on my own. I just hope I won’t forget all that I’ve learned and become thanks to the many friends and family that have bothered to be in my...
I know that I could trust you with my body, but i could never trust you with my heart. And I would never let my body go first. Which is why I will never hook up with you or anyone else.
Let’s end this. Before another memory becomes a regret
What do I want?
I just read a post by another writer on tumblr which got me thinking about the present. Today, I’ve been sitting around in this house, dressed in pajamas all day, doing things that don’t matter at all. I don’t think I’m bored. I’m not lonely either. Mostly, I just feel pathetic because I can’t keep myself constantly busy with new and exciting passions.
Maybe...
I love recognizing familiar places in other...
Do what you'd like. I'm not looking for love. not...
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Want: tribal earrings
How I spent Christmas Eve:
I spent it in my room, feeling lonely and nostalgic, as I sifted through every single card I’ve ever received in my life. I came across several from people who’s names I don’t recognize anymore and people whom I wish I still talked to. Then, at one point, I came across an easter card from around 2006 written by a boy I had never considered important until now. You see, there was...
Anonymous asked: where do you live?
date was somewhat of a success!!!
the downside to this is now i’ve hopelessly got my hopes up. oh well, it was nice while it lasted but it wouldn’t have lasted anyway.
“They were men enough to face the darkness”
– Joseph Conrad, Heart of Darkness
Just saw a wonderful film: Frida
There wasn’t any strong moral because it was pretty much a biopic. However, her strong mind, and her fearlessness was so inspirational. She truly lived to become her own woman. And even as she was “crippled”, her blunt honesty and her humor always made her such a beautiful artist.
Part of me already knows that someday, I will...
live in a loft in Boston where the interior walls are made of brick
Read lots of books and go to many museums
Study abroad in Paris
pretty much everything on my bucket list
I got asked out the other day
And of course, my resistance just completely crumbles. Whatever happened to “oh, I could never trust him” just disappears out of nowhere as I text back, “sure”. I’m even willing to look over the fact that he prefers texting to actually talking over the phone.
And meanwhile, now that the date and time has been set, I’m just paralyzed with nervousness....
I was dependent on you in every way possible
You were my source of inspiration, the person I looked to when I made choices in life, and the rebel who’s freedom I envied and desired. Yet somehow, I am unraveling my own freedom, and I’ve realized now that I am my own person however lonely that may be. Perhaps I have finally accepted my own attempts at compensation for the loss of you. Either way, I am finally letting you...
it’s this kinda day
I am so completely overwhelmed by the number of...
Society has made me impatient. I can’t read because I keep feeling all this pressure to move on with my life and do something “productive”. How sad, it seems that I have also been plagued with urgency.
It's sad feeling lonely.
I want to leave. Escape my own body so I can finally do what I want. In fact, this imprisonment, I think it’s more physical than emotional.
Yet even now, as my lack of sufficient income threatens to keep me from the college of my dreams, I feel helpless.
Either way, I don’t want to think anymore. I’m tired of missing everything that no longer exists. So what do I do now?
The day my life changed.
I woke up this morning trying to get to school for an outreach recital I was singing in with my vocal jazz group. I picked up Angelica along the way and we decided to take a new route. After some time of laughing and getting lost, we got to school. I parked as usual, paid my 6 dollars, and went backstage of the Luckman. Then, we sang our song and I left the dressing rooms knowing that I would...
Jump with me. I want to go on an adventure
Things are going really well in my life right now
There are many things to look forward to starting immediately with the fact that I’ll finally be able to drive my best friend to school tomorrow. Then, she, Jackie, and I will be attending Grace’s fashion show/after-party on Saturday. Not to mention my future might be set with the long-awaited notification on Friday after an exciting duet with Dornell at the Luckman Theater. Then,...
She gazed out at the night, wanting to explore, but weighed down by morals and security. You see, a part of her had already left the desk, hoping against all hope that there was something more for her world than the books had told her. Because somehow, she could sense it now. A raw and invigorating vibrancy of being alive. Studying was well for preparing for the future. But what about now? When...