December 2011
23 posts
“You’re weird…I love it”
I don’t know whether it was to time, to people, or to herself. All I knew was that I was losing her and I didn’t want to. As her body continued to tremble in my arms, I bid my limbs to clench tighter around this elusive shell, threatening to slip away.
“Stay with me?” she whispered desperately.
“Of course” an empty promise.
But even as I said those words,...
I wondered why I felt so sad, and then I...
Except for New Years Eve, I dread holidays for reasons I don’t even know. I just feel even lonelier than usual with all of the festivities. Last year’s cheerful holiday found me sifting through old cards from friends lost over time and clearing out the drawers in my room. This year was no exception. I said goodbye to another book character today. I really liked the Hunger Games. But...
I think I'm getting a B in all of my classes this...
At least I can say that I learned something…
When I get home I will:
Eat.
Drive. a lot.
buy black boots
buy more clothes
read. a lot.
think about matt. a lot.
go to korean bbq with Karen and Yoonji and Grace
take lots of pictures with Grace
hang out with Moki
Play piano
Create my resume so I can apply for that summer job in japan
visit old friends
That huge "what if"
I can’t help it. I need to find out. Would you accept this heart of mine? I don’t want to miss this opportunity!
My roommate is turning into the grudge right...
oh, and….MATT ASKED FOR MY NUMBER IEIOIKVLXNCMV,N.LKDJFLA;LSKDJFA;SDLKFJA SPAZZSPAZZSPAZZ
“Love begins with a metaphor. Which is to say, love begins at the point when a...”
– The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera
Fuck self-preservation
Fuck it. I want to break myself to prove I’m not fragile. I want to take a risk without hesitation. I want to stop giving a shit so that I can finally have some honesty.
Only now do I understand that all of those lessons with her were not merely the give and take of skills. It was the most earnest honing and nurturing of art. A rite of passage where one person’s treasure is passed on to another. In the end, Kathy chose me to teach her reason for living. But without realizing it, I only reluctantly accepted her gift. In fact, I did nothing to keep it alive....
I know it was just a hookup,
but would it be too much to ask for more? As cheesy as this sounds, I’ve never fallen so hard for a smile like I’ve fallen for yours. And screaming out the lyrics with you, I knew I was having fun.
Haven't hooked up in a while.
Body type. Dreams may come true?
But I was high. And he was drunk.
Moulin Rouge.
I love my jazz combo!!!
The performance last night was so fun!!!! I never knew how enjoyable it can be to sing in front of people. And the compliments really had me glowing!!!!!!! weoir,mxna I love every single person in my combo! Especially Justin!!!!!!!!!
I've been spoiled.
It’s been a while since I’ve had to work this much. Laziness is definitely kicking my finals-ridden butt.
Last night, someone asked me if distance can end...
Back then, I was way too high to function, but thinking about it now, I think that once we’ve loved someone, it never leaves us. I know a person with whom I have been separated by every possible obstacle. Not only is the physical distance awfully great, but time itself has taken him farther than I could ever reach. And yet, I know that the same love which grew back then is still in me now.
I really want more of those organic gauge earrings. but…but….the money!!!!!! savin up for japan, this summer
“Perhaps that is what it means to be a father-to teach your child to live without...”
– The History of Love by Nicole Krauss
Favorite movies I've seen thus far:
Midnight in Paris
Bright Star
Dirty Dancing II
Into the Wild
Motorcycle Diaries
A Single Man
The Fall
Forrest Gump
Moulin Rouge
Black Swan
Repo! The Genetic Opera